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Monday, August 24, 2009

Sharing Simcha -- Part IX

I took one last walk through the camp, reliving the moments, the friendships, the inspiration that the very ground bore witness to. My heart was stirred and my feet didn't want to leave, but deep inside I knew it was time to move on. I was ready.

And yet...

Regret and envy. The feelings that come forth now, looking back. Regret that there were moments I squandered when maybe I could have given more. Regret that there were still so many special people I hadn't gotten to know better. Envy of the youngsters just about to embark on their first Simcha experience with all the moments still theirs to grab. Envy of those who truly live up to their special reputation.

Next time I walk those hallowed grounds, iy"H, will be as an outsider. Someone else will have taken over my job, my bed, my rotation shift. I won't recognize three quarters of the staff and they will never know that I spent n years doing their job. It'll hit hard.

Don't know why I'm getting so maudlin about this. After all, I disinvited myself. See, they have this policy, "Ein me'arvin Simcha b'simcha." Which is what this whole post was going to be about. I guess the fact that my thoughts are still in camp is part of my answer to SD's dare (bet, whatever.) Though I wouldn't turn down any iced coffee, anyhow...

14 comments:

Frayda said...

Mazal tov!

MusingMaidel said...

mazel tov!

u no hu said...

mazel tov!!! ;) can't wait to see you... ;)f'real i mean...

halfshared said...

:-) Mazel tov!! This is such wonderful news! It totally made my day. Thank you for sharing it.
Hopefully there won't be any need for Camp Simcha next year...

ProfK said...

An official mazal tov! Just keep in mind that humans are constructed with their eyes on the front of their bodies. This is so they can see where they are going. Sure, you can turn around to see where you have been--and yes, to think about it and maybe even to be sad that you aren't there any longer--but if you are going to get anywhere, to travel the road of life, you need to focus your eyes forward. And maybe to concentrate on and think about all the "Simcha" that has yet to come.

Freeda said...

Mazal Tov! so happy to hear (read) the great news.
and amen halfshared!

Something Different said...

I think I've said this before, but MAZEL TOV!

And its ok to be a bridezilla, I have your coffee ready!

Lvnsm27 said...

mazel tov

thinking out loud said...

Mazal Tov!

starr said...

Wow--mazal tov!!

Do we get to hear any of the (non-identifying, of course, details)?

Hope this doesn't mean a retirement from blogging!

sporadicintelligence said...

MAZAL TOV!!!

It's so great to wish a fellow blogger Mazal Tov in a simcha I just experienced myself, I feel like I know what I'm talking about....much mazal and bracha, and all the good stuff..... :)

Anonymous said...

BS"D

Finally, Miss Bas Melech.
Thank you for sharing the wonderful news with us.

Teezku Livnos Bayis Ne'emmon Bi'Yisro'ail.

Respectfully,
"Z. Avrohom"

grinfish said...

Mazel Tov!

Bas~Melech said...

Thanks for all the well-wishes, everyone!

Special welcome back to Zaide Avraham, haven't seen you in ages!

And no, not planning any official retirement, I've just been way over my head in work and stuff so not much time to devote to writing. But I'm still here and have about 6 half-written drafts waiting to get posted...