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Sunday, November 16, 2008

Forgive me

Forgive me
if I didn't sound
delighted
when you told me
your news.
I'm happy for you
I really am.
It's just that
last year
as I held your
perfect
beautiful
soft
warm
newborn
close to me
I closed my eyes
for a moment
and dared to dream
that the next one
would be mine.
And you've just told me
that it won't be.
So forgive me
if I don't sound
thrilled.
I'm happy for you
I really am
and I'll smile
for you
tomorrow.
But tonight, I know,
when I hang up the phone
when I can be alone
I'm first
going to cry
for me.

12 comments:

~ Sarah ~ said...

it's hard eh.

The said...

reminds me of something i wrote once upon a time...

BEHIND A SMILE said...

I can sadly identify too well. May you very soon feel the weight of your own in your arms. Although it seems so far now, may the wheels needed now start turning so that it is not as far as it seems.

halfshared said...

I had tears in my eyes as I read that because I can understand so well what you feel.

Bas~Melech said...

Just as an aside, it's interesting how much better I felt getting the feeling into words and out of my heart. (thanks, SIS!)

And Smile -- amen! And the same to you all!

Ahuva said...

(hugs)

David_on_the_Lake said...

sowwy

Scraps said...

Sigh.......yeah.

(((hugs)))

The Babysitter said...

Oysh!

It really does hurt, your allowed to have those feelings.

and it really does help to write these things down.

RubinCompServ said...

Did you write this? Now I'm crying too.

Bas~Melech said...

Thanks for the validation, y'all.

Rubin -- Yes. I almost always post my own creations; anything else is referenced.

Bas~Melech said...

Hey people
Don't know if anyone's still reading this, but if you are you might want to know - it's three years later and my baby just met the baby in this post for the first time, and they had a great time together! A few more years and they won't even notice the age difference!

:-)

YESHUAS HASHEM K'HEREF AYIN